Back to my blog

Well it really has been a long, long time since I last posted. I really had a lot to deal with back then and have gone through a lot to get to a good place right now. Since last year I have attened the Mind/Body retreat, gone through a second round of IVF, which failed AGAIN, and had surgery to remove a polyp on my uterus. And then two weeks ago on the day of my period starting again for the 38th time I had an epiphany - I was ready to adopt!!! When I had the realization I could not believe how clear everything seemed and I could not wait to get home that night and share it with J. He was just as ready but of course he still walked around the house in a daze for three days because that's what he does when we make big decisions. (you should have seen him after we bought our house!) Any how - I actually feel like on that day I peed on a stick and got a positive result. Of course I will always morn the loss of never having a child with my dimples and J's 'light-up-the-room' smile however raising a child (no matter where they come from) is the most important thing. For us to be parents and provide a loving, nurturing home is what we are meant to do. I can't even describe how truly happy I am about this decision. And I promise to continue this blog as J and I go through the adoption process. And we have chosen Guatemala as the country to adopt from.