Decisions, Decisions.....

Tonight is our meeting with an adoption agency here in RI. This one is small and not as well known as the one we met with last week. We decided to meet with only two agencies and decide from them because we wanted to make the decision process a little easier. These two were both highly recommended so that's a good start. I have also talked with mothers who have recently adopted from Guatemala (one from each agency). The mother who used the larger, more well known agency had rave reviews and got her baby at 7 months. The other mother who used the smaller agency is actually about to go down to Guatemala this week to get her son who is 6 years old. She started the process when he was 4 years old! Talking to her made me feel very frustrated even though her situation was not typical. I do understand that this process is going to be filled with ups and downs and not always go according to plan. I do understand that - having been through 3+ years of infertiltiy and having 38 months of ups and downs I feel I am fully prepared to deal with the process of international adoption. I guess I'm just a little discouraged right now. But hopefully tonight when we meet with the smaller agency I will feel a little better. I just hope we are able to decide which agency to go with soon! I'm ready to get the roller coaster cranking up that hill.
The movie Parenthood has a great scene where the grandmother tells steve martin and his wife about the roller coaster of life compared to the merry-go-round of life and how she prefers the roller coaster. I prefer the roller coaster also and I think during this time of my life (infertility & adoption) I will be on the roller coaster called the Corkscrew! Wheeeeeee!