Big Changes for 2006

Well I finally did it! I quit my job as manager of the maternity boutique. After 3 and a half LONG years of working with hormonal, pregnant women I finally decided it was time to move on. Why I did not do this years ago is the big question everyone wants to know. I have a few answers and the main one is that my sister is the owner and therefore my boss. We began the journey together and I always thought it was worth the heartache to make the business successful. After a while I just became kind of numb to the whole thing and after we decided to adopt my emotional state did get better. However, if anyone has ever worked with family then you will know it's not the best situation to be in. My sister would take any and everything out on me. As my mom would say when I asked why does she do this, "It's because you are her sister". I guess being related gives license to treat those relatives like shit. Who knew!?

I admit growing up I was a bit mean to my little sister as all big sisters are. At times when she would be taking out her frustrations with the business out on me I would justify it by saying it's 'payback'. But is that right? Is that worth it?
Our relationship has gotten so strained over the last year that I finally told her I could not take her hurtful words any longer. Had she NOT been my sister I would have quit a very long time ago.

So anyway - after it's all said and done I will be moving on and starting my own business. I will miss working at the boutique. I really did enjoy it at times but the stress on me and my relationship with my sister was just not worth it. To be honest the last three years have not been the best of my life. Going through infertility and working on a daily basis with pregnant women was just plain crazy and really did a number on my mental state. I'm surprised I survived because there were days when I either wanted to drive off the road on the way home or literally punch one of my customers in the stomach. I know that sounds awful but that is really how low my state of mind would get and somehow I pulled through and came out on the other side adopting a baby and a MUCH stronger and wiser person than I was when I first opened this store. Even though my faith in God is very rocky after all of this, I can say that He does work in mysterious ways and one day I will understand the meaning of this phase of my life.

I wish everyone a Happy New Year and hope that whatever your goals are or whatever you've been through in the past, that 2006 is a year filled with happiness and love.
That is something everyone deserves.